American Beauty (1999) dir. Sam Mendes
I told my Poli Sci professor today in office hours about how much I’d wanted to join the military before finding out diabetes disqualified me, and my god, that was cleansing to my conscience. I was explaining how the military is not just a bunch of green-suited action figures in a box like from childhood toy collections, but is a corporate entity, an entity of engineers and linguists and a whole host of others behind its propulsion, and can’t be fairly regarded in single-dimensional terms. And I explained how I came to realize, with this surprisingly hopeful POV, that I could still be involved in services without being on the combat side after having been so steadfast about being a woman in the field and going on to become an astronaut (both being things T1 diabetes has disqualified me for). We have a final paper about whether foreign relations are interstate, international, or otherwise, and I’m arguing how relations and the entities themselves behind them have many more dimensions of actors than to be able consider a single level in charge, especially given how circumstance can determine which actors hold more power at given times without permanence/fair assumption in conceptual treatment.
“I realized that there was this entire life behind things, and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. ”
If I had a soul I sold it
for pretty words
If I had a body I used
it up spurting my essence
Allen Ginsberg warns you
dont follow my path
The Graduate (Mike Nichols, 1967)
I guess this is how the initial idea for Mean Girls must have been promoted in Hollywood executive circles.
My parents asked what kind of special thing I’d ideally choose to do upon coming home from college on break. I said I’d love to attend an Atlanta Symphony Orchestra performance. They said that idea was boring and they’d rather go to Harry Potter World.
Do you officially become an adult when your parents say your idea of fun is lame?
"Don’t kid yourself" would be a great slogan for birth control pills
My Tarantino playlist. Even if you don’t like (or know) his movies, the music is pretty enjoyable on its own, I’d say.