I got my first-ever set of business cards in the mail last night before my first-ever “big-time” interview & first-ever coding/technical interview this morning. I’m standing in as my own concerned parent over growing up too fast.
I built this playlist to profile a character I’m writing, and I have chills at how spot-on the music is for who I’m envisioning. It legitimately freaks me out to see my character this clear-as-day, and it truly exhausts me to have so thoroughly, constantly, often unintentionally come to know who the person is down to very minute details.
It’s an amazing kind of draining feeling, completely contradicting the general unpleasantness of feeling drained; as I often end up draining myself in this process of character development, that rigorous, draining thought pours directly — spotlessly — into this person’s profile. There is no waste; my exhaustion is this character’s depth.
I got to go to the very last personal wand selection process of the night at Ollivander’s in Harry Potter World (where one person in a room of people has a wand matched to them by a shopkeeper). There were only me and one other person in the room since the whole park was basically clearing out by then. Just me and one other person. 50/50 shot, absolute best odds of the day. GUESS WHO DIDN’T GET SELECTED
“No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention.
Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day.”—Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters (via psych-facts)